LOVE/HATE

Love…. Have I ever been in love, you might say that . Horrible isn’t it in what way? It makes you so vulnerable it opens your chest and opens your heart & it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all this defenses and build up this armour for years so that no one can hurt you, then one stupid person no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you then your life isn’t yours anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out & leaves you crying in the darkness. So sometimes a simple phrase like “maybe we should just be friends” or “how very perceptive” turns into a glass splinter working its way inside your heart . How picturesque! . It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind . It’s a soul-hurt , a body-hurt a real- gets-inside you-and-rips-you-apart-pain. Nothing should be able to do that . Especially love. I hate love.